Ex-porn star Crissy Outlaw has been speaking out for the past decade about what drew her into adult filmmaking — and why she eventually abandoned her lucrative career. Outlaw, who is now an outspoken Christian, recently told the Daily Mail that she can’t believe she ever went into porn, adding that she feels “called” to tell people why she left the industry. She expresses this same sentiment on her website as well, explaining how difficult it has been to contend with her dark past .

“Most people can think about their pasts and can easily hide it … never sharing it with anyone for the rest of their lives. The evidence and consequences of my past mistakes will never go away,” Outlaw writes on her website. “I have to deal with this daily, and it isn’t easy. I find happiness in using my past to help others who might be going down a similar path.” READ MORE