I don’t really like this truth, but here it is: Who you are in the fire is who you are. I want to imagine that who I am on television is the true representation of who I am. I like the edited version of me. I like how I look after an hour with a makeup artist and someone who actually knows how to style my hair. I like kind lighting and a controlled set. But none of these dynamics reveal my hidden flaws.

Those usually come out when some area of my life is crossed. This reminds me of something God spoke through the prophet Isaiah: “See, I have refined you, but not with silver; I have chosen you in the furnace of affliction” (Is. 48:10, MEV). I would have loved it if God had rephrased some of this. “I have tested you in the sauna of the spa experience,” for example, would have been nice. READ MORE