russiannavySeptember, 1984 – Late one night, I could not sleep, The children were sleeping on the luggage.  My wife and daughter were crying, I went outside and walked around.  I didn’t want them to see me cry.  I walked around the building, crying and saying, “God!  Why did you punish me?  Why did you bring me into this country?  I can’t understand anybody.  If I try to ask anybody anything, all I hear is, “I don’t know.” I stopped in front of the apartment and sat on a large rock.  Suddenly a bright light came toward me.  I jumped to my feet because it looked as if a car was coming directly at me, attempting to run me down!  I thought the Romanian Secret Police had tracked me to America, and now they were trying to kill me.  But it wasn’t a car at all.  As the light approached, it surrounded me.  From the light I heard the same voice that I had heard so many times in prison. He said “Dumitru, why are you so despaired?” I said, “Why did you punish me?  Why did you bring me to this country?  I have nowhere to lay my head down.  I can’t understand anybody.”  He said, “Dumitru, didn’t I tell you I am here with you, also?  I brought you to this country because this country will burn.”  I said, ‘then why did you bring me here to burn?  Why didn’t you let me die in my own country?  You should have let me die in jail in Romania!  He said, “Dumitru, have patience so I can tell you.  Get on this.”  I got on something next to him.  I don’t know what it was.  I also know that I was not asleep.  It was not a dream.  It was not a vision.  I was awake just as I am now. More