slw-womanpray-122412Tonight was exceedingly rough. I really dislike those nights. So instead of sleeping I decided to write. I can’t sleep anyway … I don’t want to wake up any friends … And I’ve already poured out my heart to God face first in the carpet. I’m back to those days. My face in the carpet days. I don’t have a closet to hide in anymore … Oh how I miss my closet. One of the many things that broke my heart tonight was all my interactions with my littlest girl. The transitions our family has made have been very difficult for her. She is feisty anyway, so put a change in the mix and she’s just … well, really feisty. Unfortunately I have about 2 minutes’ worth of patience left at the end of the day, and I can’t seem to be the mommy I want to be. More